saya maooo kurussss

oke bc entry pon dah tau kan?? hehe kenapa aku mewar2kan (ada ka ayat nie?? ntah bantai je) bnda nie??

1. sbb aku aku ada bc sumwhere..if u want to lose weight u had to tell the world..why? because nnt tak leh men2x sbb suma org dah tau kaooo tuh nk kurus nnt tak kurusss maluuuu woiii.
2. sbb paling penting adalah aku nk beli baju kemeja utk interview..but it seems suma tak kena especially my arm yg cm weight lifting all my life..(APSB seniors didnt call me ARMSTRONG for nothing)
3. lastly opkos want to feel good bout myself...ive been in ignorance yg aku nie tak ckup gemok lagi mcm yg the biggest loser tuh.

naaa bila time nk shopping baju lawa2 suma ketat kat bontot (cheissss). ngan bila jmpa org, org asek cakap : ''hey kaklong awat dok GEMUK la nie dlu kurussssssss!!!!" well2x aku akan membuktikan pada mereka siapa amalina sebenarnya MUAHAHAHA !!!! (kalo tak malu sioooottttttttttttttt).

dis is my current picture weight at 75 kg

right now im aiming for 65 kg 1st in a month..insyallah....amin

p/s: doakan saya ye..harap saya tabah melakukan weight loss nie....

unbelievable!!!

i was watching the last season of  OPRAH ( hey its my fav show oke!!) it was the episode entitled : What are they doing now?. The things is Oprah had set up a group of people to comb her entire collections of her 25 year season..about 30 000 guests envited over, to find the most memorable guest invited over to OPRAH's set. The one We Can't Stop Talking About. 


So ada dis episode back on 2005 entitled The Fat One In The Family. (yeap dengar tajuk pon cm tutttt)..So dis gurl named Jill came to the set with her father Kirk. The most unbelievable thing is that the father openly humiliate her daughter in international TV!! something like "Im ashamed of Jill" and verbally abused her. Shitbrix. The gurl actually undergo a gastric bypass and one year later, more slimmer but practically cnt stomach her food without throwing up sat beside oprah and says "Im really happy that my father accepts me for who I am now".

Yeah with an IV tube stuck in ur arm every now and then because ur too damn fragile without proper nutrition. I bet another 5 year that gurl will get BULIMIA and her father will die happy his daughter is skinny enough it brought her to her death bed. Pftttttt.  It really hits the nerve because im considered fat too and my dat is not as S.H.A.L.L.O.W as u kirk.


Link: http://www.oprah.com/oprahshow/The-Oprah-Show-Guests-We-Cant-Stop-Talking-About/4

kirk jerk with her you're-the-fat-one-in-the-family jill (pity u gurl (T_T) )

p/s: mmm...one happy sicko family..KIRK ur officially a JERK man. a worst one.

ramdhan and what it meant for me..

yeah2x aku tau aku slalu edit lambat..salahkan lappy aku yea sbb bluetooth dia slalu problem..mcm ngan tutss suda..n sbb aku bz doing practically nothing thank you..huhuhuhu

diam tak diam dah 7 hari kita berpuasa di bulan Ramadhan al-Mubarak nie..setiap mlm aku pegi tarawikh...(mula kena paksa ngan mak tapi lama2x rela hati..hehe alhamdulillah)..nak story arituh aku balik kpg..actually bukan kpg, umah taman jew..aku balik ari sabtu arituh 6 hb 8..yang paling best bapak aku bawak g bazaar ramadhan kat seberang perai..(blkg masjid seberang perai) aku rasa yg tuh paling besau kat penang..guess pkul bapa dia bawak aku p? pkul 2.30 ptg!!!!ish geram gila bak hang!!! ape la..

then aku after round2x kejap kami pon bertolak ke sg petani..(dlm ati aku bengang je..sabo ye dik non)..dah lama aku tak balik kpg..maklum la musafir...smpai ja salam2x ngan tok (tok ckp aku makin gemuk!! (T__T)) aku pon stat la masak2x (yea jgn tak caye saya bole masak gak tau tapi tak terer sgt mcm my cuzzy Siti Nurul Mariam (ceh promote sepupu dlm blog kan)..

masuk waktu kami berbuka posa..then solat tarawikh..tok wan aku jadik imam..paling best nie ada 2 adik sepupu aku nama Mohd Amir Fitri ngan Mohd Irwan Danial...abg dia cm diam sket...he supposedly darjah 5 tahun nie..ada prob sket but never mind...adik dia umo 6 taun...u wudnt believe the nerve budak nie ada!! dia bole makan2x sambil ajak abg dia yg posa tuh mkn (masa siang tuh la) "abg nk mkn megi tak?", "abg nk air tak?"dat kid!! LOL...tak larat gelak...aku makan laksam nie dia bole dok sebelah abiskan laksam aku ish3x....mlm tuh dia main2x ngan bapak aku...he kept coming again and again...ape la itu budak...

my main point is...family no matter how irritating they were...how annoying they may be...they still are you family..my mom tegur on how im dress pon rasa nk melenting ja...so mmmm i miss the point totally LOL..
wat i noe is that my mum was there when im feeling down..even when im throwing tantrum (yes a woman is allowed tantrum once a awhile) she just take it all and acts like nothing happen...daddy? im daddy's little girl...he may look though wat he says nobody could object against him..if he doesnt get wat he wants he would sulk for days..hehehe my dad gives everything n hv nohing back....

Hopefully with the Ramadhan im able to increase my devotion to Allah swt..more humble...and hopefully i can give back to my family...they were all that i have and no words can sum up what i felt..(actually i dunt have wonderful vocabs aha thank you very much)..dah membebel lagi la...stop entry for today..chiao wasalam..

depan umah nie...

umah no 89 kat jeng..jeng....

juadah berbuka posa kat umah tok..mmg nyum..nyum...

hitam (abg): mohd amir fitri

merah (adik): mohd irwan danial

my dad performs body lock on danial...LOL

p/s: Fri(END), Boyfri(END), Girlfri(END), Everything has an "END", except Fam(ILY) --> It Has "I LOVE YOU"...ingat nk boh pic my grandparents..mmmm nntla kot..

coretan hati

aku terbaca dlm blog beautiful nara kisah mengenai apek dan ex-tunang dia erin si jejari runcing..bila aku baca komen (yeah aku suka baca komen kat beautiful nara)...suma org mara si erin nie sbb dia suka bercerita kat blog dia pasai apex. yelah sapa taknak bercerita kan if their bf/fiance is the famous goal keeper...then again dia cm menjerat diri dia sendiri la skunk when the relationship as we nw noe didnt work out...maybe betul as they say apex cm segan kot evertyhing nk diceritakan kat blog...so my condolences jejari runcing to u..maybe he just wasnt made for u..sbr ye dik non..

so cerita dia nk cerita pasal aku la takkan makcik cleaner plak kan..kdg2x sgt merbahaya apa yg kita rasa kita cerita kat fb, twitter and blog...everyhing pon org bc kan mcm skunk nie mesti ada yg baca smbil ngomel : benda mcm nie pon nk tulis kat blog..hahahaha...

in the end kan bila aku bc komen2x aku plak trasa....eh aku pon lebey kurang mcm tuh gak...kdg2x kan aku rasa benci ngan diri sendiri sgt...suma cerita pon nk cerita kat org..ingat nk luah kat sorang pastu dah jadi 2,3 org wat a loser..sighhhh...

byk gak aku dengar now cerita pasal laki pasang lain..mcm cerita my cousin...she's in love with a guy for god noes hw many long..laki tuh brapa kali ckp nak tunang ngan dia..kantoi ada gurl lain...sepupu aku yg patah hati nie accept a proposal..baru ja tunang sabtu ari tuh...masa aku pegi aku tnya dia dah brapa lama dia kenai, she said "baru kenai 2 mggu, mggu lepas mak dia datang ngan org yg berkira tuh (rekemen la) tau2x dah masuk minang kami terima ja klong sbb dok rasa kami asek kena tipu ngan laki" oh...aku diam ja masa tuh...senyum ja...tak terkuar nk tnya if she's oke or not....

hmm...aku tatau la nk ckp guys jahat ke? ada je gurls yg mcm tuh..wat i want to say is..mybe if u could be more i dunno maybe if u cud tell the truth to ur partner...kalo ada sumbody u want..dump her/he properly...jgn biar dia bergantung harap...tapi taktau plak if partner tuh taknak lepaskan plak...emmm tatau la skunk relationship is very complicated...so twisted..bila bahagia tuh macam nk terbang ja kat udara.....bila sedih tuh kan rasa mcm nk trjun bangunan...hai la cinta..oh cinta

dah la...byk sgt aku omel...ntah...just nk some peace of mind kot for myself kot writing dis entry.....hmmmm......

p/s: love is blind....