Leek soup

Hmm..tried to recover my pics..but the damn software always stuck in the middle of its process..

Maybe tomorrow ill give it one last try..

If not then im just gonna cry in the corner..till the weekend sobs!

Sengal bin tolol

2 posts in one day? Man i must be on fire...😂😂😂

Well aisheh aku nk delete satu gmbr, trdelete satu album...

Rs cem nk bunuh diri sat..

So aku try this autorecovery software (if you want to check em out here is the link):

Recovery android

Sooooooo..

After installing it, by follow it's step by step, im stuck at the part where it is trying to sync with the laptop..

Seems my cable is unable to cater the syncing data..

So ill have to try and ask my collegue if he has any..

Takdak gmbaq menarik pon just me, mum and dad that i wish to get back..

Every moment is precious...(even bila balik kpg aku bole considered anak durhaka sbb asek gado ngn mak eeeeeeesssh)

P/s: crossing my fingers lads...

burning bridges for good

Hi,

This is my last entry regarding my past..

I should have burned the bridge looooonnnnngggg funckkking time ago..

Why haven't I?

I have no fucking clue..

So, im packing my stuff, cause my dad is officially retired from the police force..

well, well look what i found

gelang silver zaman bencita

alololo omei sangat kan..? haha takdak apalah terjmpa, tulisan atas tuh aku pon tak ingat dia tulis 

apa...benda dah tak penting, dia tak register dah dalam memori aku..kekekeke and it's time for me to 

say goodbye to it already..

and a couple of things yg aku simpan...baju, snow globe, bears..

well..if there's somebody who came across this humble blog of mine, please..

please if you had been hurt, please move on as fast as you could..

i'm romantically stupid, and i tend to live in the past which i often regret..more often than i like..

i don't know how to say this, maybe because  i tried to forgive u, but it's so hard..

huhu im no angel myself..but i can't..i know it's been too long to bear grudges but i just can't..

at least u living good i hear...alhamdulillah...

HAHAHA

that's fucking awkward i must say...Baizura will kill me if she finds out...literally...mih mih mih..

it took me 3 years...but let me just burn the bridges, this time for good..

Good bye, annyeong, not all was bad, 

hey hey hey don't go there XD...let me just go with a smile...this time for good...

keep smiling..

p/s: Semoga sentiasa sihat, dan bahagia..

YOU

Dear you..

Yes you, you know who you are..

Stop popping up on my INSTAGRAM, LINKED IN, or any motherfucking SNs..requesting to friend to follow and what fucking not!

You are literally dead to me when you decided that I AM NOT WORTH YOUR TIME.

So fucking stop annoying me by popping up here and there..

NO U DO NOT NEED TO KNOW WHAT I FUCKING DO NOWDAYS..AND I CAN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF! 

JUST STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME!

p/s: i know you would be reading this..STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME

tribute to one taff cookie...my MAMA part II

20th November 2014

...continued..

it was 8 unbearable long hours since she was strolled into the ward approximately around 1.00 PM..

it seems like we've been waiting since like forever..

at 9.00 PM  while i was aimlessly playing COC on the phone, i saw a pair of feet in front of me..

when i look up, it was her...my mum's doc...

she was smiling...and she told us that the surgery went better as expected..

she told us the nurse was cleaning my mum and she will be supervised overnight in the OT room or known as (P.A.K.U) to monitor her condition.

She then hug me and left...

me and my handsome cuzzy..huhu

So me and my dad continue to wait....it was until around 11.00 PM ( with me harassing every nurse that came in out of the OT room since there's no one at the front desk, there's no one to refer too..)

A nurse asks me to change into a scrub and brought me to a room...

Watching her...with all the tubes, and wires all over her body..

It was a picture forever engraved in my mind..

She was sleeping...but she did open her eyes for some time..( she told me later she didn't remember this...which means at this state she was unconscious)..

Apart of me felt relieved she was okay..but it still pains to see she's in that kind of condition..

We arrived at our homestay around 1.00 AM...


21-25th November 2014


Me and dad went to the hospital after breakfast and waited at the ward....around 10.00 PM dad wants us to wait in front of the OT...half an hour later, we saw she was strolled out from inside the OT room..

we watched silently behind the closed door

we then followed the nurse up to her ward....she was wide awake but she just silently watching us...

she was provided with a tube of morphine, if she felt any pain, she just need to push the button that 

will inject her with a dosage of it..(but hey my taff cookie, she didn't even use the morphine...NOT 

EVEN ONCE).

That night I waited and slept beside her...

slept on the floor

that night she doesn't say much, she just told us that the doctor informs her not to move her head so much..

the incision behind her ear..

one massive respect for my mum...she never left her tasbih...

she kept on dzikir..and i just silently reciting Quran at her bedside..

And the next day family and friends came to visits her...my mum she is able to sit up on the bed...

but she isn't allowed to go to the toilet just yet..

At this time she had her period coming...mum was quite shy bout it...but heck I don't mind..

In my mind I just kept thinking how she raised me..feed me, change my diapers and shit...

if I'm not the one who's going to take care of her, who will? 

At this time i remembered how ive been such a spoilt brat during my teen years...

It breaks my heart to remember how I mistreated my mum..

I would smack myself to the moon if I were to go back in time..

my husmet and my twin came by for a visit...

thanks you guys u made my day

So I stayed at the hospital for 5 days before the doctor gave consent to release my mum...

While staying at the hospotal I came down with a flu and a fever..

Mum eventhough she's on her bed, kept throwing me her jacket...since it was too cold at night..

Mum taking care of me even when she bedridden..

So mama...this is for u....

I really love you from the bottom of my heart...

Love u mama...

N daddy too....u are all that i have...

p/s: She's too strong even the doctors were AMAZED by her...my mama..

my one TAFF COOKIE..

tribute to my one taff cookie...my MAMA (part I)

On Thursday 20th November 2014...my mum had undergone a surgery at

the back of her ear due to a 1.2cm tumor in her ear. The tumor had cost my

mama her hearing on the right ear and that distorts her face . I'm writing it so 

that more people are aware of the condition..

Well ain't it better that the self-wallowing post before aight ? hehe

What is ACOUSTIC NEUROMA?

Well from the PubMed Health 

link: http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0001782/#adam_000778.disease.causes

An acoustic neuroma is a slow-growing tumor of the nerve that connects the ear to the brain. 

This nerve is called the vestibular cochlear nerve. It is behind the ear right 

under the brain.

An acoustic neuroma is not cancerous (benign). This means that it does not 

spread to other parts of the body. 

However, it can damage several important nerves as it grows....

18 ~19th November:

So on 18th of November my mum is admitted...it's prior 2 days before the 

surgery, because Prof Asmaa 's team (the ENT specialist) would like to monitor 

my mum's health before the operation....(screening process)..

They would check for her asthma problem...and my mum has high blood 

and cholesterol issue... 

Me and dad we stayed at a homestay near HUKM...it's a RM250 per night 

room...quite expensive but since my grandparents also decided to came better 

have a spacious room we thought..

It's around 15~ 20 mins walk to the hospital...during these two days me and 

dad would walk to mom..

We would arrive around 9.00 am after breakfast...and we would stay untill 

around 7.00 pm...

HUKM didn't let any relatives to stay for the night since my 

mum is still able to walk around and chatting with other tenants huhu..

my mom friendly as always..

            

walking every morning with my dad..

20th November:

It's D'Day...my mum was cheerful as always...but we know that deep down 

inside she's nervous...

I mean who the heck doesn't? If It was me I would be screaming up and down...

(maybe not so much...but literally)..

She was chatting casually with dad..

...and then she just kept her silence...

and staring at a space in front of her..

at first I tried to calm myself by goofing off with her...

....and no reaction..

i was panic..but i kept my silence...kept my smile....eventhough it felt 

hard...and plastic...remembering it was too hard...seeing her like that..

later i was told she was sedated...she didn't remember much..

but i did...

it was hard to put on a brave face....

let alone putting it in front of dad..

waiting for the operation theater

me goofing around trying to 'help' ease the tension..

but i know i was only helping myself..

at that time.....

Mum was given her asthma medicine

Mum on stroller..on the way to the OT 

when the stroller came my face was rigid.. i kept 'telling' myself it's gonna be 

okay...everything's gonna be fine..

i can't even face my dad

my mind was blank..

when inside the OT, i just couldn't stand it..

i stood quite far...and started to sob..

seeing my mum on the stroller, waiting for to go inside the OT..

such feeling is so indescribable..

and dad was hugging and cooing me..i didnt quite catch the words all i noe i 

was sobbing into his shirt...

and so...the waiting begins....

the OT floor 1...

waiting...

i've never been such a good daughter to my family

but mama im here waiting for you...

First time jadi bridesmade

My friend, finally changed status on 15/11/2014 at a mosque near her hometown in Alam

Megah, Putra Heights..

After endurings obstacles from god knows what..they were together nonetheless..huhu..

But the most exciting thing is that she had invited me to become her bridesmade! OMGGGEEEEE

excited gila bak hang!!

I've searched high and low to find a peach coloured dress...haha it was tiring, exhausting ( peach coloured dress is MEGA HARD to find!!! )

Then on the 16/11/2014 , ive walked with her down the stairs...stood with her in the rain (IT WAS POURING LIKE MAD) stood beside her on the dias..

She was pretty in the WHITE DRESS..looking like a beautiful doll..

So this post is for you Nurul Ashikin Binti Abd Latiff..

Thank you for the invitation...

It was fun..Sorry didnt get to be a very good bridesmade...

You're really beautiful..

Alhamdullillah after all those you've gone through you guys finally made it..

BARAKALLAHUMMA...

Like a princess...hehehe

Poyo poyo je aku kat sebelah

Me and the best man...

Mujur tak masuk dlm semak 

Istajib duaa' ana...

I was browsing my fb....somehow i found this video posted on my friend's wall...

I'm quite fond of Lah...he has a very beautiful voice...but this vclip really shakes me back to reality..

I was too caught up in my own world..

I've been thought since I was small that Allah s.w.t has planned for everything the good and the bad..

Thank you Lah..your vclip had provide me a very powerful reminder that I'm not alone...

I have my God, my family and my friends....

Thank you....

Thank you....

Thank you so much..

When Everything's made to be broken..

Currently this songs literally sings to me..

so thought i'd shared it with u guys...(^_____^)

"Iris"

   

And I'd give up forever to touch you

'Cause I know that you feel me somehow

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

And I don't wanna go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment

And all I can breathe is your life

When sooner or later it's over

I just don't wanna miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming

Or the moment of truth in your lies

When everything feels like the movies

Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I dnt noe since when...but suddenly i started to miss u...ur texts, ur smile, ur jokes...yes i miss u....

but ull never be mine....

never seemed too long....

yes...never it is...never ever......

burnt out flames

....dah cukup setahun...

dah cukup setahun everything happened..

in 5 month ur engaged..

in another 5 month ur someone else's husband...

everything just slipped by too fast..too fast...

i'm hoping this time i myself can find closure..

goodbye luv...goodbye promises..

just a simple goodbye...


i really hope everything works out for you...

p/s:but like a burnt out flame, burnt and destroyed, all of our love, it hurts so much, but now I’ll call you a memory.....

hapus aku..

.....ish..nk start mcm mn pon tak tau..
tetiba saja nk tulis..after months and months abandoning my blog..
tak tau sapa baca kot jadi sampah internet..LOL..

.............whew im counting days...counting days for him to become somebody's else husband i persume...
rasa bercampur baur esp bila kad kahwin tuh is personally hand given by him..

..............no..tktau nk ckp apa..

nk ngarut..

yeah mlm nie otak dah weng...mgarut...mgarut....

i dunno what im doing anymore......

just...please lemme forget everything bout him..

lemme move on....

no point for me to stay rooted where I am now...

yes..rambling nonsense....

p/s: .......yakinkan aku tuhan dia bukan milikku...

Masihkah...?

Diam tak diam dah hampir 3 bulan dah..seems like forever...well lawak gak rasa bila terpikir pikir rasa macam nk tumbuk ja muka dia...tapi since the feeling is there u just can't help to wonder eh nk tumbuk ke hapa.. funneh funneh..live's seemes to be mocking back at u...

alhamdulillah i'm in a healing process..i'm a strong gurl i noe at times i felt so vulnerable but then i'm only humane eh..kan? kan? kuatkan semangat amalina...

then one day sumone told me he's getting engaged...mulut cakap alhamdulillah...pastu cakap teringat rasa nk tumbuk muka...hahahaha nk tumbuk ka amalina? ntah cakap je lebih..:) i smiled....

yes i felt so frustrated...i've always had this vision of us growing old together...(yeah yeah cheezy much i noe)...at least u've moved on...i'm trying to..step by step...now being single back had to contain myself not to become a whore...kuar ngan laki sana sini...sabar...sabar...

pagi tadi driving dengar lagu nie...teringat sangat..walaupun benci tapi ingat suatu ketika dulu kamu pernah membahagiakan aku..suatu ketika dulu aku pernah tersenyum keranamu...suatu ketika dulu aku pernah rasa aku wanita paling cantik kerana kamu..

apapun aku sentiasa mendoakan mu...(walaupun dalam keadaan rasa nk tumbuk ja muka kamu tuh!) XD..

i smiled like nothing happened..it's calling dealing with the shit and staying strong...

stay strong...be strong...gud gurl....gud gurl...<===<< cakap kat diri sendiri...

Masih Aku Cinta - Shila Amzah

Biarpun kau tak lagi ada dengan ku

Takkan ku bisa melupakan mu

Cara mu, memanggil nama ku

Terasa seolah kau masih ada

Jauh di dalam sanubari ku

Tak ku relakan pemergianmu

Namun ku, kan selalu doakan mu

Agar kau takkan terus terluka

Kau kan temui bahagia

Walaupun aku tidak bersama

Jangan kau gusar

Aku akan selalu ada

Dari jauh engkau masih ku cinta

Dari jauh aku masih mencinta

Takkan pernah ada penggantimu

Yang mempertahankan ku sepertimu

Satu dunia, menentang cinta kita

Akhirnya kita terpisah jua

Yang mengenal mu cuma aku

Tidak ku menyesal mencintaimu

Yang ku harapkan

Kau juga mendoakan ku

p/s:Akan tiba saatnya di mana kita harus BERHENTI MENCINTAI SESEORANG bukan kerana kita PUTUS ASA untuk mencintainya, tetapi kerana kita MENYEDARI bahawa insan yang kita cintai itu akan LEBIH BAHAGIA apabila kita MELEPASKANNYA...

crdt to http://hajatsaya.blogspot.com/2013/02/lirik-lagu-masih-aku-cinta-shila-amzah.html

what to do..

ahahaha nmpak tak tajuk post? cm doh ja..tapi aku rasa nk post something...
malas nk pikiaq tajuk....

U..i've missed u so much....
my days had been tastless...everything was in black and white not as colourful as it used to be..
everyday seems like a battle..
silently i kept my plastic smile...
nasib aku ada agama..
kalau tak mau aku buat benda bodoh..
actually aku dah buat benda bodoh..
a mistake upon another..

Ya Tuhan..
aku nk berdoa pon aku malu..
sebab aku cuma ingat masa aku dlm keadaan kesusahan..
yg wajib tertunggang langgang..tapi aku usaha utk membaiki diri aku..

Ya Tuhan,
hambamu yg hina ini memohon...
kuatkan imanku...kuatkan semangatku..
sbb aku masih perlu hidup utk org yg menyayangiku..
semoga aku tabah menghadapi hari hari mendatang..

Putus cinta itu tidak menyakitkan..
Yang sakit adalah sudah putus tapi masih sayang..

Walaupun hati aku sakit...
Walaupun kadang kala terlintas utk doakan kemusnahan kamu..
Tapi aku tahu itu semua cuma perasaan aku saja..
Hakikatnya aku sgt menyintai kamu..
Sehingga saat ini aku masih berharap kau meninggalkan dia dan bersama aku..
Tapi logik akal aku memberitahu lebih baik aku doakan sahaja kebahagiaan kamu dengan si dia..

Jadi jika kamu ada membaca ini..
Ketahuilah..aku sudah maafkan segalanya..
Sakit ini biar aku tanggung sebab aku tahu Tuhan itu ada..
Biarlah aku menangis sendiri menahan pedih dihati..

Biarlah kau bahagia asal kau bahagia..
Semoga kau sentiasa bahagia..
Aku sentiasa titipkan dalam setiap doaku..
Semoga aku peroleh ketenangan jua satu hari nanti..

hOmE

it's been roughly a month since all hell break lose...

betul la org ckp menyintai tak bererti memiliki..

my insides had been torn apart relentlessly..

even life seems so dull..

dear u..

u've been apart of me existence..

im trying to find peace within myself..

hopefully im able to forgive..n forget....(T_T)..

dedicate this song Tablo Ft Lee Sora entitled home...

meLanChoLic

hye..

remember me..yeah me..someone who relentlessly ignore my blog n somehow it became the internet trash..
yeah me..LOL..

What's new about me? not much..still didn't succeed in my weight loss program..(well..well no suprise there DUH!)

Alhamdulillah get a job eventhough as an asst QA/QC engineer I have a really fulfilling, challenging, stresstothemax kinda feeling but eventually after a year I decide to try for an interview..

Surprisingly I got the job offer! Emm here comes the hard part...my family..my Swichtec family..I was torn apart..it was like a dream come true when the offer came..but will I be able to cope with it? Will I be able to deal with it? What if I suck at it?? So much unanswered question without solid answers..

When you ask for opinion ppl can gv em but not to decide it for u..Well heck I expect resigning would be like a breeze in the park...not a hurricane much less a typhoon..

So what? what? what do I do? Drive me insane...Fear of the unknown had paralyses me..mmmmmmm..
Sigh....

I hope I'm making the right decision...love u guys so much...: AZHAR+NADIA+HAJAR +IKIN+ASRUL+ BOB+ JAMBU+SAPIK+JEHAN+DAUS+HAN+FIKRI...

If it weren't for U..Work would be so intolerable..life would seemed so unfair...But GOD had blessed me with friendship that I can't imagine living without..

Would I choose to be in the comfort zone? Would I choose to explore new things? Dem it I hate such indecisiveness..

Untill I make the ultimatum..my sleep will be sleepless more or less would be like a zombie..

Dem!!

Sobss....

p/s: Please...please...

brapa lama daaaa

hai hai hai...i noe... i noe it's a bit lame coz it's been 9 month prior to my last blog...sowee actually terlupa bout it..(how noob i can be? i ask dis everdy la liaaaaooooooo)

from my last entry i've been feelin under the whether kan? yup kinda still does but lucky soooooo lucky i've such great colleagues and of course Mr Bf yg sedia menemani.

hmmm no idea wats not...just want to update a regular entry after so long haven't been. well cheerios.^^ huhu

astagfirullah...assabruminal iman....

emmmm...sobs...aku tak tau nk tulis apa nie...rasa sedih sgt..ujian demi ujian berlaku..nie bukan ibarat sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga...nie ibarat dah jatuh timpa tangga berguling2x...phewww..(aight2x lilek jgn mengeluh...)

1stly, aku benti as customer service, tetiba aku dapat call dorang nk freeze akaun aku sbb aku tak bg notis?? wat the jackfruit? apa kehal aku bg notis 8 to 9 hari kot..call pnya call rupanya my trainer tak bg lagi surat..(.............) .

2ndly isu rumah sewa. aku pon konpius.. mula2x nk bhagi 2 alih2x ikot bilik plak..uiksss bulan depan brapa plak dik? nnt kita diskus len...ewah??!! mak aku pesan..hg baik2x nnt dia dok preeeeee kat umah tuh...ciwilah dia dapat penyewa lain arituh.. bukan maen lagi.

3rdly tmpat baru aku keja...kata qa/qc engineer tgk offer letter assistant qa/qc engineer....what??????? pening2x lalat aku..wah2x...tnya my mom gak how? wat to do? hoto kacho? Mom said just work 1st and gain experience.. naseb ada kawan2x yg sabar kan aku...


urmmm sedey gila bai...wet takdak umo 25 tahun kena mtk kat mak lagi..patot kita la yg bg kat depa...sob....sob....tapi im a person dat believes everything happens for a reason...mesti Tuhan bg ujian sbb nk kita nie jadik terbaik kan..(amin..)...

p/s: Dear God, im not praying my life to be easier, just  please help be gather my strength and be strong....

warming up 1,2 ,3

warming up 1,2,3 check mic 1,2,3..hello anybody dere? anyone? ............ hehe wassup peeps (yeah so lame) sorry for no updates quite a while..so caught up wif my personal life ngeeeee~. Its Chrismas today so in b4 do want to wish HAPPY HOLIDAE if ada prezen ingat la kan den ey..

wats happening in my life right now? nothing much. baru benti keja as a CSR (customer service representative) kat TM. quite an experience. very friendly colleagues but very hansap mentor. 1st day dok floor kena maki ngan customer LANCAU LA LU WASTING MY TIME. we make jokes SORRY UNCLE I DNT HAVE LANCAU JUST CIBAI. (tak kata depan2x gila kauuuuuuuuuuuuu) .benti sbb dapat keja baru..alhamdulillah. arituh jauh di sudut ati ada rasa sedih sbb keja CSR lari dari bidang aku blaja dlu(electrical yea2x..) tapi sumhw aku tak menyesal amik keja tuh. met new friends gain so much experience especially in people skills.  gonna mish u guys (sob..sob).

 mak aku pesan keja jgn memilih nie aku nk pesan plak seriusly guys JGN MEMILIH..kalo hg tak keja smpai 3 bulan. keja la dlu. takkan nk dok tggu ja...it doesnt work dat way. alhamdullillah pas aku accpt keja CSR, interview and tawaran keja mencurah2x (tak la melampau2x dlm 2, 3 ja) . tapi seyeslah keja skrg bukan senang der. keja ja dlu. suma bnda nk experience.

so next tuesday, new environment, new house, new place, start all over..life has a beginning and end...life is short. just live welll and meaningful with no regret...cewah...nnt nk post 2012 pnya resolution...manyak menda nak achive..nak buat duit yang penting nk kawen..weeeeeeee~gatai siot..bukan nk elak kan maksiat....ckup2lah yg ada now....


bak kata sharpay dlm high school musical TOODLES.  xoxoxoxoxox


p/s: yeah aku berjaya kurangkan berat badan to 70 kg..tolong doakan i can shape my arm n hips n flatten my tummy dis 2012..huhuhu...weeewoooooooooooooo

saya maooo kurussss

oke bc entry pon dah tau kan?? hehe kenapa aku mewar2kan (ada ka ayat nie?? ntah bantai je) bnda nie??

1. sbb aku aku ada bc sumwhere..if u want to lose weight u had to tell the world..why? because nnt tak leh men2x sbb suma org dah tau kaooo tuh nk kurus nnt tak kurusss maluuuu woiii.
2. sbb paling penting adalah aku nk beli baju kemeja utk interview..but it seems suma tak kena especially my arm yg cm weight lifting all my life..(APSB seniors didnt call me ARMSTRONG for nothing)
3. lastly opkos want to feel good bout myself...ive been in ignorance yg aku nie tak ckup gemok lagi mcm yg the biggest loser tuh.

naaa bila time nk shopping baju lawa2 suma ketat kat bontot (cheissss). ngan bila jmpa org, org asek cakap : ''hey kaklong awat dok GEMUK la nie dlu kurussssssss!!!!" well2x aku akan membuktikan pada mereka siapa amalina sebenarnya MUAHAHAHA !!!! (kalo tak malu sioooottttttttttttttt).

dis is my current picture weight at 75 kg

right now im aiming for 65 kg 1st in a month..insyallah....amin

p/s: doakan saya ye..harap saya tabah melakukan weight loss nie....

unbelievable!!!

i was watching the last season of  OPRAH ( hey its my fav show oke!!) it was the episode entitled : What are they doing now?. The things is Oprah had set up a group of people to comb her entire collections of her 25 year season..about 30 000 guests envited over, to find the most memorable guest invited over to OPRAH's set. The one We Can't Stop Talking About. 


So ada dis episode back on 2005 entitled The Fat One In The Family. (yeap dengar tajuk pon cm tutttt)..So dis gurl named Jill came to the set with her father Kirk. The most unbelievable thing is that the father openly humiliate her daughter in international TV!! something like "Im ashamed of Jill" and verbally abused her. Shitbrix. The gurl actually undergo a gastric bypass and one year later, more slimmer but practically cnt stomach her food without throwing up sat beside oprah and says "Im really happy that my father accepts me for who I am now".

Yeah with an IV tube stuck in ur arm every now and then because ur too damn fragile without proper nutrition. I bet another 5 year that gurl will get BULIMIA and her father will die happy his daughter is skinny enough it brought her to her death bed. Pftttttt.  It really hits the nerve because im considered fat too and my dat is not as S.H.A.L.L.O.W as u kirk.


Link: http://www.oprah.com/oprahshow/The-Oprah-Show-Guests-We-Cant-Stop-Talking-About/4

kirk jerk with her you're-the-fat-one-in-the-family jill (pity u gurl (T_T) )

p/s: mmm...one happy sicko family..KIRK ur officially a JERK man. a worst one.