Istajib duaa' ana...

I was browsing my fb....somehow i found this video posted on my friend's wall...

I'm quite fond of Lah...he has a very beautiful voice...but this vclip really shakes me back to reality..

I was too caught up in my own world..

I've been thought since I was small that Allah s.w.t has planned for everything the good and the bad..

Thank you Lah..your vclip had provide me a very powerful reminder that I'm not alone...

I have my God, my family and my friends....

Thank you....

Thank you....

Thank you so much..

When Everything's made to be broken..

Currently this songs literally sings to me..

so thought i'd shared it with u guys...(^_____^)

"Iris"

   

And I'd give up forever to touch you

'Cause I know that you feel me somehow

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

And I don't wanna go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment

And all I can breathe is your life

When sooner or later it's over

I just don't wanna miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming

Or the moment of truth in your lies

When everything feels like the movies

Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I dnt noe since when...but suddenly i started to miss u...ur texts, ur smile, ur jokes...yes i miss u....

but ull never be mine....

never seemed too long....

yes...never it is...never ever......

burnt out flames

....dah cukup setahun...

dah cukup setahun everything happened..

in 5 month ur engaged..

in another 5 month ur someone else's husband...

everything just slipped by too fast..too fast...

i'm hoping this time i myself can find closure..

goodbye luv...goodbye promises..

just a simple goodbye...


i really hope everything works out for you...

p/s:but like a burnt out flame, burnt and destroyed, all of our love, it hurts so much, but now I’ll call you a memory.....

hapus aku..

.....ish..nk start mcm mn pon tak tau..
tetiba saja nk tulis..after months and months abandoning my blog..
tak tau sapa baca kot jadi sampah internet..LOL..

.............whew im counting days...counting days for him to become somebody's else husband i persume...
rasa bercampur baur esp bila kad kahwin tuh is personally hand given by him..

..............no..tktau nk ckp apa..

nk ngarut..

yeah mlm nie otak dah weng...mgarut...mgarut....

i dunno what im doing anymore......

just...please lemme forget everything bout him..

lemme move on....

no point for me to stay rooted where I am now...

yes..rambling nonsense....

p/s: .......yakinkan aku tuhan dia bukan milikku...

Masihkah...?

Diam tak diam dah hampir 3 bulan dah..seems like forever...well lawak gak rasa bila terpikir pikir rasa macam nk tumbuk ja muka dia...tapi since the feeling is there u just can't help to wonder eh nk tumbuk ke hapa.. funneh funneh..live's seemes to be mocking back at u...

alhamdulillah i'm in a healing process..i'm a strong gurl i noe at times i felt so vulnerable but then i'm only humane eh..kan? kan? kuatkan semangat amalina...

then one day sumone told me he's getting engaged...mulut cakap alhamdulillah...pastu cakap teringat rasa nk tumbuk muka...hahahaha nk tumbuk ka amalina? ntah cakap je lebih..:) i smiled....

yes i felt so frustrated...i've always had this vision of us growing old together...(yeah yeah cheezy much i noe)...at least u've moved on...i'm trying to..step by step...now being single back had to contain myself not to become a whore...kuar ngan laki sana sini...sabar...sabar...

pagi tadi driving dengar lagu nie...teringat sangat..walaupun benci tapi ingat suatu ketika dulu kamu pernah membahagiakan aku..suatu ketika dulu aku pernah tersenyum keranamu...suatu ketika dulu aku pernah rasa aku wanita paling cantik kerana kamu..

apapun aku sentiasa mendoakan mu...(walaupun dalam keadaan rasa nk tumbuk ja muka kamu tuh!) XD..

i smiled like nothing happened..it's calling dealing with the shit and staying strong...

stay strong...be strong...gud gurl....gud gurl...<===<< cakap kat diri sendiri...

Masih Aku Cinta - Shila Amzah

Biarpun kau tak lagi ada dengan ku

Takkan ku bisa melupakan mu

Cara mu, memanggil nama ku

Terasa seolah kau masih ada

Jauh di dalam sanubari ku

Tak ku relakan pemergianmu

Namun ku, kan selalu doakan mu

Agar kau takkan terus terluka

Kau kan temui bahagia

Walaupun aku tidak bersama

Jangan kau gusar

Aku akan selalu ada

Dari jauh engkau masih ku cinta

Dari jauh aku masih mencinta

Takkan pernah ada penggantimu

Yang mempertahankan ku sepertimu

Satu dunia, menentang cinta kita

Akhirnya kita terpisah jua

Yang mengenal mu cuma aku

Tidak ku menyesal mencintaimu

Yang ku harapkan

Kau juga mendoakan ku

p/s:Akan tiba saatnya di mana kita harus BERHENTI MENCINTAI SESEORANG bukan kerana kita PUTUS ASA untuk mencintainya, tetapi kerana kita MENYEDARI bahawa insan yang kita cintai itu akan LEBIH BAHAGIA apabila kita MELEPASKANNYA...

crdt to http://hajatsaya.blogspot.com/2013/02/lirik-lagu-masih-aku-cinta-shila-amzah.html

what to do..

ahahaha nmpak tak tajuk post? cm doh ja..tapi aku rasa nk post something...
malas nk pikiaq tajuk....

U..i've missed u so much....
my days had been tastless...everything was in black and white not as colourful as it used to be..
everyday seems like a battle..
silently i kept my plastic smile...
nasib aku ada agama..
kalau tak mau aku buat benda bodoh..
actually aku dah buat benda bodoh..
a mistake upon another..

Ya Tuhan..
aku nk berdoa pon aku malu..
sebab aku cuma ingat masa aku dlm keadaan kesusahan..
yg wajib tertunggang langgang..tapi aku usaha utk membaiki diri aku..

Ya Tuhan,
hambamu yg hina ini memohon...
kuatkan imanku...kuatkan semangatku..
sbb aku masih perlu hidup utk org yg menyayangiku..
semoga aku tabah menghadapi hari hari mendatang..

Putus cinta itu tidak menyakitkan..
Yang sakit adalah sudah putus tapi masih sayang..

Walaupun hati aku sakit...
Walaupun kadang kala terlintas utk doakan kemusnahan kamu..
Tapi aku tahu itu semua cuma perasaan aku saja..
Hakikatnya aku sgt menyintai kamu..
Sehingga saat ini aku masih berharap kau meninggalkan dia dan bersama aku..
Tapi logik akal aku memberitahu lebih baik aku doakan sahaja kebahagiaan kamu dengan si dia..

Jadi jika kamu ada membaca ini..
Ketahuilah..aku sudah maafkan segalanya..
Sakit ini biar aku tanggung sebab aku tahu Tuhan itu ada..
Biarlah aku menangis sendiri menahan pedih dihati..

Biarlah kau bahagia asal kau bahagia..
Semoga kau sentiasa bahagia..
Aku sentiasa titipkan dalam setiap doaku..
Semoga aku peroleh ketenangan jua satu hari nanti..

hOmE

it's been roughly a month since all hell break lose...

betul la org ckp menyintai tak bererti memiliki..

my insides had been torn apart relentlessly..

even life seems so dull..

dear u..

u've been apart of me existence..

im trying to find peace within myself..

hopefully im able to forgive..n forget....(T_T)..

dedicate this song Tablo Ft Lee Sora entitled home...