On Thursday 20th November 2014...my mum had undergone a surgery at
the back of her ear due to a 1.2cm tumor in her ear. The tumor had cost my
mama her hearing on the right ear and that distorts her face . I'm writing it so
that more people are aware of the condition..
Well from the PubMed Health
link: http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0001782/#adam_000778.disease.causes
They would check for her asthma problem...and my mum has high blood
and cholesterol issue...
Me and dad we stayed at a homestay near HUKM...it's a RM250 per night
room...quite expensive but since my grandparents also decided to came better
have a spacious room we thought..
It's around 15~ 20 mins walk to the hospital...during these two days me and
dad would walk to mom..
We would arrive around 9.00 am after breakfast...and we would stay untill
around 7.00 pm...
HUKM didn't let any relatives to stay for the night since my
mum is still able to walk around and chatting with other tenants huhu..
my mom friendly as always..
Well ain't it better that the self-wallowing post before aight ? hehe
What is ACOUSTIC NEUROMA?
link: http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0001782/#adam_000778.disease.causes
An acoustic neuroma is a slow-growing tumor of the nerve that connects the ear to the brain.
This nerve is called the vestibular cochlear nerve. It is behind the ear right
under the brain.
An acoustic neuroma is not cancerous (benign). This means that it does not
spread to other parts of the body.
However, it can damage several important nerves as it grows....
18 ~19th November:
So on 18th of November my mum is admitted...it's prior 2 days before the
surgery, because Prof Asmaa 's team (the ENT specialist) would like to monitor
my mum's health before the operation....(screening process)..
and cholesterol issue...
Me and dad we stayed at a homestay near HUKM...it's a RM250 per night
room...quite expensive but since my grandparents also decided to came better
have a spacious room we thought..
It's around 15~ 20 mins walk to the hospital...during these two days me and
dad would walk to mom..
We would arrive around 9.00 am after breakfast...and we would stay untill
around 7.00 pm...
HUKM didn't let any relatives to stay for the night since my
mum is still able to walk around and chatting with other tenants huhu..
my mom friendly as always..
walking every morning with my dad..
20th November:
It's D'Day...my mum was cheerful as always...but we know that deep down
inside she's nervous...
I mean who the heck doesn't? If It was me I would be screaming up and down...
(maybe not so much...but literally)..
She was chatting casually with dad..
...and then she just kept her silence...
and staring at a space in front of her..
at first I tried to calm myself by goofing off with her...
....and no reaction..
i was panic..but i kept my silence...kept my smile....eventhough it felt
hard...and plastic...remembering it was too hard...seeing her like that..
later i was told she was sedated...she didn't remember much..
but i did...
it was hard to put on a brave face....
let alone putting it in front of dad..
waiting for the operation theater
me goofing around trying to 'help' ease the tension..
but i know i was only helping myself..
at that time.....
Mum was given her asthma medicine
Mum on stroller..on the way to the OT
when the stroller came my face was rigid.. i kept 'telling' myself it's gonna be
okay...everything's gonna be fine..
i can't even face my dad
my mind was blank..
when inside the OT, i just couldn't stand it..
i stood quite far...and started to sob..
seeing my mum on the stroller, waiting for to go inside the OT..
such feeling is so indescribable..
and dad was hugging and cooing me..i didnt quite catch the words all i noe i
was sobbing into his shirt...
and so...the waiting begins....
the OT floor 1...
waiting...
i've never been such a good daughter to my family
but mama im here waiting for you...
